I haven't posted for a bit but I decided it was vital to inform my friendslist that I still hate the mornings, that mornings come too fucking early, and I spend every day up until around 10 in a sleepy daze wishing that I could influence the flow of time in order to get more sleep.

Alternatively, I could stop staying up to watch the Daily Show and Colbert Report. And especially stop following that activity with playing games on my DS in bed. I BEAT THE GAME I CAN'T NAME BECAUSE ITS FANS SCARE ME. The ending kinda disappointed me. I expected more EPIC. But at least it has THAT CHARACTER that I love in a million ways. Maybe they'll make a manga of it with a better ending.

BOOKWISE I finally listened to read finished American Gods. I love Neil. But I wish the thing with the thing was worked into the plot earlier! Also having Shadow's woman call him Puppy was hilarious.

Also did Demon's Lexicon. I liked it, but the amounts of UST in every single direction kind of annoyed me. EVERYONE HAS SEXUAL TENSION??? I also wish the book had been more focused on Alan's thoughts and feelings. But it was all about Nick. ...which didn't do that much for me. I don't hate him, but he's just not my type of main character. A lot of people like the angry broody type though, so I'm sure lots of people are happy with that. I just care like a hundred times more about Alan and Jaime than I do Nick and his eternal :| :|

also predictable plot twists were predictable but that doesn't surprise me

So my sister-in-law recc'ed me a book called The Hunger Games. Since my mom said she'd buy it for me, I decided why not. My sister-in-law has SOME similar tastes to me--she loves Harry Potter--and some not so similar. ...Twilight. But from the summary she gave, I thought I'd like it.

In a DYSTOPIAN FUTURE, North America is kinda fucked and no longer the USA. It's now Panem, made up of the Capitol and 13 districts. Except the districts tried to say FUCK OFF to the Capitol so the Capitol kicked their asses. And nuked District 13 or something. Apparently it's smoldering ruins these days.

To remind the remaining 12 districts that they can suck the Capitol's cock, every year they hold the Hunger Games. One boy and one girl are taken from each district to compete in. Well. Televised Battle Royale, basically. They all have to kill each other! But it does take a slightly different take than Battle Royale. The kids in the game can get sponsors, who send them gifts in game. If people like you they can send you water while you're dying of thirst. Medicine for your wounds. So it's more than just capping asses, you have to play the crowd as well. I think that's interesting!

( And now spoilers! )

My mood is joined at the hip to the weather.

It's hilarious only not because I am crashing out emotionally again in sync with a freeze warning. Oh hilarious cold misery.

On the other hand I had a fantastically creepy dream that was pretty badass and it even had the Doctor in it at the end coming to stop the end of the world. Somewhere in there I also had a math test that ended up mostly being questions like Who is the 11th Doctor and such important math questions.

I AM SO BORED LATELY

( SO BORED )

You know. It's not EVERY day when you dream about having a twin--who goes missing halfway through your dream and the Something Wrong is signaled to you by the color change of a plastic bracelet. Or that you dream about a spaceship that is perfectly fine to wander the outside of even in space. Or that said spaceship has filing cabinets lining the OUTSIDE. Or that part of the dream takes place in a grocery store and you're spending the time there looking for various medicines to save the life of yourself and your twin. Or the bit with like, your REAL older brother and dad crowded around an iPhone watching weird youtube videos that don't exist. ...I think. Something about vegetarian situps.

But really the highlight was the two dudes rejecting another dude's attempt to get engaged to a female friend of theirs. And it ends with a chase scene. With them all wearing masks straight out of Persona. Special mention for the Izanagi mask guy. BRAVO. ...the masks were glittery. Lolz.

I love you dreams.

VARIOUS UPDATES NO ONE WILL READ

Persona 4: Complete
Chrono Trigger: Awaiting Purchase
Dr. Horrible DVD: Awaiting Purchase
Coke: Fully stocked
Meat: Semi stocked

I am in good shape to live my life.

My niece and nephew are still GOD DAMN ADORABLE. Hayden got this amazing remote control dinosaur. That his daddy kept stealing from him to play with cuz my brother is FIVE.

But really the highlights were as follows:

-my brother getting NAILED in the face while playing tetherball Which was also a present for his son and not him
-my brother's resulting nose bleed and him spending a good chunk of time with kleenex up his nose
-my uncle getting nailed in the jewels from--yes, tetherball!
-my brother and sister-in-law taking over dishes duty in my place
-wonderful cash gifts
-my dad replaced my pearls I lost at AWA the other year
-hearing my brother whine that he wants to go home to play a wii game with nerf guns
-card and gifts from Ash ♥

( Merry Christmas, etc. )

Now carry on with your lives. Merrily.

I love my work friends, I do! They're very nice to me, we have fun and gossip and sometimes go out to eat or the movies and stuff. I don't really have any friends outside of work so it's nice. I enjoy the time I spend with them. So when I heard one of them had a 'mission' to do more fun things with me I thought that was sweet. But then as the less tactful of the two brought it up with me, without the other around...a dreaded word came into play.

We'll make it our project to get you out more!

I am not a 'project.' And there is a difference between wanting to do fun things with me and wanting me to get out more. Maybe they have the same end result but the feelings involved are different. This kinda thing has happened to me repeatedly before and it always irks the hell out of me. Like people are just playing reality show with me. It just...ugh. I know they don't mean it like that but all the same it hurts my feelings a little. I'll probably try to uh gently correct her if she says it like that again. I was so off guard when she said it the first time I didn't know what to do.

I could rant further but I will not. Instead I will link to this e-card that sums up all my deep, intimate feelings I've had lately.

As such.

I am getting in touch with my whiny, needy side.

The morning is so early. I suspect it'd feel less early however if I stopped staying up late to play Persona 4 like a dumbass. I really need to uh grind instead of somehow winning battles while five levels underleveled through sheer determination. Cuz I don't think that'll work all that much longer.'

Man this game is fun though. I love all the characters and the plot is cool. I just wish the rapist nurse had kept her rapist edge. I'm not even halfway through her s.link and she's NOT TOUCHING ME INAPPROPRIATELY ANYMORE. I am so disappointed. I had hoped the max out for this link was a tasteful fadeout as she pushed the main character onto a hospital bed. Oh well.

The thing I hate about this game however is that it makes me all introspective and I am reminded of all my very unpleasant qualities. All of which I am aware of and hate. Although in a way this game is good for that too, because all the characters accept these unpleasant parts of themselves instead of wallowing. I'm real good at wallowing.

...

God the morning is early.

...THERE IS SNOW IN LOUISIANA

WHY

WHY

FUCK YOU WEATHER NO

WHY IS THERE BLUE ON THE WEATHER MAP NO

NO

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

IT HAS ONLY SNOWED HERE IN SOUTHERN LOUISIANA TWICE IN MY YEARS AND I MANAGED SKILLFULLY TO MISS ONE OF THOSE HAPPENINGS

I. I don't LIKE being cold. Or ice. Or sleet. Or snow. Or any of this. Oh god I miss it being 70 degrees.

Oh I hate you winter no matter how much I sleep it never feels like enough. I was in bed by ten damn yooouuu.

I'm gonna be semi disappeared now hopefully to play Persona 4 unless by some wicked folly it is still not in at the shitty Gamestop I preordered from. Note to self: Don't buy from the store you despise even if they offer preorder bonus because their bonus is a lie. Also the part where they called me to tell me my game was in--TWICE--and then I showed up and it was not fucking there. Fuckers.

All said I look forward to many hours of wanting to touch Yosuke, pursuing my true self, and thinking that The World Ends With You has better vocal tracks. I suspect Teddie will scare me much like Maromi but I hope not because I don't need that kind of heart gripping fear embedded in me as I play. I also found out the healer is Yukiko whose element is FIRE so I am VERY PLEASED by that cuz it feels like a nice twist to the usual wind or water healer. Yay yay~. Lunar: Eternal Blue still wins though for having their healer be a slightly hairy gambling male.

oh christ why am I still so tired i slept like 8-9 hours that's a lot for a jessica. that's an insane amount for a jessica.

Dreamed about secret tunnels, airplanes, fairs, people in giant bird costumes, and strangely enough Sylar having my Handy Dandy Notebook. Oh, and some Avatar stuff fightin' crime. We had the fair after they saved the world~.

I woke up feeling so cozy comfy, it was a total bitch to get out of bed.

Only four more work days until I have a whole THREE!!1 off for Thanksgiving! Contrary to my mother's best efforts, I will not be anywhere fucking near her this year. She can go be SAD AND ALONE!!11 ...with her family who she ignores because none of them are newborns. This is all great because to me there is something VITALLY WRONG when you visit someone on Thanksgiving and they TAKE YOU TO MCDONALD'S

I dreamed I was in a WAR!!11 against some kind of monsters with all these other people. They breached our outer wall in multiply places using crazy fucking tricks like posing as someone's cousin using a birdhouse. In this dream I also got my hair cut to like, my shoulders. And spent a lot of time trying to hide it from my dad cuz he hates when I cut my hair. And I also went shopping with Robin from Batman for a cape to fight the guy who took over our city in. And instead Robin got distracted by old fashion Christmas decorations. I ended up calling on the aid of Yoshi and Luigi to go do the final battle. On our brave march to the inner...office...none of the monsters stopped up cuz they thought the guy was a dickass too. These monsters didn't like having cubicles it seemed. ...I also woke up on my stomach instead of my back. And I sleep on my back. Maybe that's the special Dream About Monster Wars With Adding Gaming Mascots sleep position?

Now I wanna get my hair cut cuz I dreamed it and I looked FABULOUS. But it's WINTER. I need that hair to keep my neck warm. And. And my back. That and I'm lazy.

...

NIPPON ICHI WHY YOU DO THIS TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

i want it

I still have not set my alarm clock an hour back. So my alarm is going off at 5 am.

And I find this works because even then I still find myself physically incapable of making it OUT the bed until I spend an hour sulking in bed over the fact that I must leave it. Change of weather, you are my harsh mistress.

In other news, I purposely didn't answer the phone the other day when my mum called and when I attempted to call back yesterday there was no answer. I am unsure if I should be worried or not. I really hope that her last trip here didn't leave her IN DESPAIR!!111 to the point where she drunk herself into an oblivion while popping pills. ...again.

Not that I get upset over it. I just get tired of her going "JESSICA I ALMOST DIED ;.;" every time we start to have a minor disagreement. Because it really doesn't. WORK with me. Considering she did it to herself and I am a horrible child with no sympathy. And who needs "I ALMOST DIED...TWICE D:"

Look look I'm using my LJ for once. What deep insightful post will I make? About the election and the power of hope? About that motherfucking motherfucker who I wanna punch in the teeth? About how the ceiling tiles are falling from the ceiling at work??

I had been getting up on time for the sole purpose of training myself to make hot chocolate in the morning when it turns cold. And despite this. When I wake up on cold mornings.

I am far too lethargic to pour some water in a pot to boil. And instead just curl up in a blankie.

That was meaningful, right everyone? FULL OF MEANING, THE HUMAN CONDITION, AND...PROBABLY SOME THIRD. THING. (Laziness)

FUCK THIS HURRICANE AND THIS DRAMA

I'M FLYING TO STAY WITH NIX TOMORROW AND WILL SPEND MY VALUABLE AWAY TIME PLAYING DISGAEA 3 while my apartment floods but thats okay i'll sandbag my door with my copies of ouran and bleach